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It’s at this time of year, it all comes back to me. It hits me more than it did then. I never thought it would be this hard, but it really is. Weather it will be a merry christmas or not for me this year I don’t know but i’m certainly not all that excited about it. I feel like the grinch, for not being festive when everyone else is =/.
I haven’t even done any Christmas Shopping, for anyone at all. It’s the first Christmas without my father, and quite frankly I am not in the festive mood at all right now.
All I really, really want, is some company. People to talk to me, go out for a few drinks, say hello. But that never seems to happen now-a-days as it is anyway, I seem to have to constantly chase people to go out with me, but that is not other peoples fault, mine I guess.
Oh well the new year is approaching something I am looking forward to. A new leash of life, with the possibility of a move to another city far far away from here which is looking very appealing right now.
But more on that in the new year.
For the rest of you, have a merry christmas.
I shall join you for the happy new year.
